Yes, I have been MIA again. I have a very sad reason. Well, it has happened again in my household. We lost another family member less than three weeks after losing Gus. Our 17 year old tuxedo baby, Marilyn, passed away on Monday of this week. To say the past month has been difficult is an understatement. Marilyn’s passing marks the third fur baby we have lost this year, in the past 6 months actually. At first, I was really sad, but, recently, that turned to unreasonable rage and self-pity. I literally did scream therapy, at my hubby’s suggestion, the night that Marilyn died, because I felt myself slipping into a very dark place mentally. That helped me immensely, but I still felt the need to pull into myself and take a break from posting to my blogs. I am sure you all understand and I appreciate that.
Marilyn was a part of our lives from before her birth. We adopted her pregnant mother, Kismet, to save her life and the life of her unborn children from the pound’s gas chamber. I can remember seeing the babies move around in Kismet’s belly, in the days leading up to their birth. And on the day they came into the world, Marilyn was the last to be born. Kismet was exhausted, after already giving birth to Marilyn’s three siblings. I had to help Kismet finish giving birth to Marilyn and I was the one that cleaned out Marilyn’s mouth and got her to scream her first, very loud meow. It is a memory that I hold very dear to my heart and I think it is one of the reasons her death has hit me especially hard. She left a very special mark on my heart, because it was like I gave birth to her that day myself. That may sound a bit nuts, but I am a bit nuts when it comes to my fur children. True story.
I also want to thank my wonderful support system. So many of you have reached out to me and offered empathy, love, support, poems, stories, photos, etc. thru this time and it has meant so very much to me. Truly! I know that I say things like this all the time, that I say it is cliché, and that I say there are not enough words in the English language to truly express how I feel and how much your support means to me. All of this is true.
I will leave you with some of my favorite photos of Marilyn. I hope you enjoy them.
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